Finding it hard to find time to update...... Thomas doing well, HOl not being such a nice big sister. She keeps hurting him really bad and waiting till im watching to do it. Im at my wits end, I dont want to be mad with her but shes
pushing all my buttons. Jay and I are fighting cause Im so stressed out with her....grrrr.....

Heres some pics from in hospital and the ones where he is in the blue suit are the day he came home..

Thought it was time I got in here and announced the arrival of

Thomas Jackson Born 5 weeks early on valentines day 2007 4 pound 14 and 42cm.....

I am currently writing up my hand written blog LOL from the time we were in hospital so hoping to link it to here when Im finished.. Here is some pictures of my little man During our hospital stay. I didnt take any of these as I didnt get to see him in the crib....

In the Humidicrib

Lastnight We had to take HOls to the hospital at about midnight. She had a few bites after her sleep yesterday that were bigger then normal but not a worry. She woke at midnight saying stinging, so I took her top off and she had massive big raised welts in her armpit and down her side. She had a heap of little tiny welts inside it too. So off we trundled to hospital. Seems she is allergic to mossie bites. HEr cousin is as well and his blow up to tennis ball size.. ICK.. Not much we can do but phenergan and cream and try not to get her bitten.. Ill add a pic. This was taken after 3 doses of phenergan and the cream applied 4 times.

Today was my appointment with Hollebone to check on me and bubs. Fiona came for a drive with me which was fantastic cause I just couldnt do it on my own. Bubs is engaged, Bloods were just below normal, blood pressure was up and have +1 protein. The concern is that with one kidney I cant afford to have preclampsia. I have to have more bloods done tommorrow and go back again next week and im supposed to REST... Trying tell that to this family... GRRR..

I also picked up my scans today that said baby was about 1.8kilos last friday at scan, and that the growth has slowed a bit since previous scan ( a tad behind) but in the right range for current gestation... I have a pic of bubbys face... ITs soo cute..


Oh and the "Australian Princess" finale was tonight and Kylie won it.. Kylie is SILs sister ( penny). OMG im shocked.....

Here is a LO I did last week. Nothing real exciting but at least its another one down. Its of Hol with santa Xmas 2005. The secret about santa is that its her god father under that suit. LOL....

Lastnight Jay got really drunk and spewed everywhere in the lounge room. I was sooo ropeable and left it there ( i always clean it up usually) today I made him go get the carpet cleaner from woolies to scrub it. Feral... Blokes really piss me off.... Woke up to him crying next to me at 1am. TOld me some news thats not very good but Im not allowed to share just yet either. Going to be a very sad week me thinks when results come in....

Well yesterday was a bit of a drama... Woke up about 3:30am and felt a little gush.. Then went to toilet and had a full bladder. Wasnt quite sure what to do cause I didnt know if it was waters or wee. It didnt smell like wee though. I layed down for a bit long contemplating what to do then got up and rang the hospital ( an hour away), They said I really needed to be checked cause of the suture and asked if I could ring Local hospital and see if they could check me to see if it was ruptured membranes to save me a trip over there. Rang the hospital NO they dont have the stuff available to do it. So rang Tamworth hospital back and they told me I needed to go over...

Woke jay up and Hol up and started our drive to hospital. When we got there it was 5:30 am. The nurse checked the pad I had on and said there was a trace that read positive . She rang my OB and apparenlty he said "oh shit". LOL.. He told her to get the registrar in to do a swab and if it was positive I was going in helicopter. Midwife came back and told me what was going to happen ( basically said I was on helicopter being transferred). I was having contractions as I was hooked up to the machine and a couple of them were huge but were put down to BH in the end. Registrar came in and did swab and said there was no trace in canal but I had loads of extra mucous which was probably from the stitch. OB then turned up to check and told me I was ok to go home... SO it was all very dramatic and I was totally exhuasted.

Ob wanted me to have a scan to check growth ( this was before yesterdays scare he wrote the referral) just in case bubby needs to come earlier with this rising BP. So the only scan i could get was this morning unless I waited till end of february. So back to Tamworth we went again lastnight, and stayed with mum and dad then had to be at scan at 8am this morning. Bubby was moving around crazy and has the cutest little face, I cant wait to pic my scans up to see it. The lady asked did we know the sex and did we want to know. It was sooooooooooooooo tempting but we were strong. Bubby is only measuring 3 days smaller so thats fantastic. I need to get to at least 34 weeks to stay in Tamworth otherwise I have to go to sydney or Newcastle and I just cant do that with Hols.. Its head is sitting right on my cervix and suture so no wonder it hurts like hell..

When we were at the hospital and they had told me that I would most likely be flown out to newcastle I was talking to Hols and said mummy might have to go away and you will have to stay with Nan and pop.. She said "NOOOOOOOOOOO I want to be with you Mummy". Broke my heart in two..... Here is a pic mum took of us when we were away...

I forgot to write about my bday. It was loenly and sad and depressing. LOL... AND I fell over. I slipped on the kitchen floor and fell straight on my belly. POor dad didnt know what to do. He said he came to help me and he couldnt beleive how fast I got up off the floor. He kept saying are you ok all night.. I felt like a bit of an idiot actually. I went down pretty hard..

Went to OB today. I Finally had a weight gain, Up 6 kilos from last appointment. LOL.. Still only puts me 3 kilos over the weight the day I found out I was pregnant cause I have had losses. The only real issue atm is that my BP is up to 145 on 80 which makes me borderline hypertension. Bit scared about it but he wants to see me next week to check on it and check for protein. I had the start of preclampsia with HOls and thats why I was induced, but bp didnt start rising till much later then this....

He also wants me to have an ultrasound to check growth again which is good that I get to see bubba again.. Cant wait....

AND I have a ceaser date.. its some time in the week starting the 5th of March but just keeping it hush for now. Need to have a bit of a suprise for the family...... Last night I couldtn sleep cause Im so scared about another ceaser. Last time I didnt have time to think about it was all too quick..


Having BH right this second so better go lay down..

Just a quick post to wish myself HAPPY BIRTHDAY.... LOL....

Nothing exciting happening, we are just staying at mum and dads place in Tamworth cause Jay is working on the canteen for baseball for the lead up to country music. Its bloody hot and Im feeling it soo bad. Lucky mum and dad have a pool, but sometimes it just seems like too much hassle to actually get in. LOL..

Bubby is moving around crazy still making me feel very ill. I have OB appointment tommorrow and I cant wait to discuss all thats going on with him. Im getting lots of Braxton Hicks and lots of pressure in butt and cervix. Its really painful at times. Im 31 weeks as of yesterday. Starting to get a bit scared about the idea of having a newborn as well to look after as a toddler. But in a way cant wait to have my body back so I can actually do things. Just feel like everytime I bend over or move a leg is gonna come flying out my mouth... LOL.

Better go hang out with Hols before she trashes mums house again.

ARGGHH Hols is being so trying again... GRR... Shes scared of everything and still hasnt been on her swing she wanted so badly and got from Santa. Shes scared of everynoise, shadows, cars, trucks. Its driving us crazy..... Shes also started smacking as a lot and spitting at us. My god where does she learn this stuff. By the end of the day Im just so over it....

When we were away she did something that blew mum and I out big time. We were sitting in the car and she said " the queen", I said " what did you say hols". " the queen is on the money mummy" she had a 50c peice in her hand. I couldnt beleive it. I was dumb struck. How does she know who the queen is? ive never mentioned it..

Ive had really bad Braxton Hicks for the last few days and they are driving me crazy. My OB said if I had any I need to go to hospital but its over an hour away and as long as they calm down when i rest I think ill just ride it out. Hols and I are going to mum and dads tommorrow so we will only be 10 minutes from the hospital if need be and I see OB on Wednesday.Bubby keeps getting its feet up under my ribs the little bugger. Had forgotten how awkward that feels.

Heres a little piccie Jay took of Hols and I tonight. He thought we looked cute snuggled up on the lounge... After looking at this photo i REALLY wanna get my teeth whitened. I rekon it would make such a difference. They are just so stained from years of smoking and coffee drinking...

Im so naughty, I have really exciting news and I havent even posted it yet.. Hollie and I went away with mum and dad for 5 days to wait for the birth of my nephew. By 3 days past due date, Dad and I were killing each other, Hols wanted to go home to daddy, and bubby didnt look like wanting to leave his warm womb any time soon. So we came home. I had predicted him to be born on the 7th January(he was due the 1st). When Lee went in to labour on the 5th I was bit shattered that my prediction was wrong, but after 32 hours of labour the little bugger held out till the 7th ( at 1am) and was born by ceaser. All just to prove that Anuty Kase knows all. LOL.... So Id like to introduce

NOAH JAMES RILEY born 7-01-07 weighing 9 pound 7, but a little shorty at 50cm. HC 37cm.
He is a bit of a boof head, and covered in a bad red rash which he was having some tests done for. THis is the first photo i got sent, from James' phone. He was only an hour old.

He is so big compared to my little cherub at birth.LOL I havent actually met him but seen video of him. I cant wait till he loses that bashed up new born look and i can get down there clicking away with my camera..LOL..

Here is a few more chrisssy photos..Love this one, she is just sooo gorgeous. I wanna eat her up..
with her Poppy.... I love this photo.... This is Jays dad, he has been through so much this year. He absolutely adores Hollie to bits. He is recovering from cancer and lots of chemo...With nanny. Hol looks soo much like her. Its hard to tell in this pic cause MIL eyes are closed. She usually wears glasses too, very rare to have a photo of her without them. I just love the way hols is holding her face... Hollie being the hostess with the mostess..... In her new swimmers

Well another xmas is over. We had a nice day with mum and dad staying xmas eve and waking up with us on xmas morning. I feel a bit bad as we really didnt have a lot of money to spend on Hollie and she didnt get a lot of pressies and a couple she got I had got from garage sales and stuff. I know it doesnt really matter and she had a nice day, but i feel kinda guilty for not being able to spoil her more.. She got a swing from santa ( really from my parents but she had been saying santa was going to bring it for her so we went along with it) and she still hasnt been on it yet. SHe is such a scardey little thing...

We packaged up the DUmmys on Xmas even and wrote a letter to Santa and left it on the table with the coke and bickies. LOL... Hollie picked out a special box from the shop and pacakged it all up by herself. She didnt even ask for it the first 2 nights but asked last night and wanted us to call santa up and get it back for her..LOL.. She got woody in exchange for the dummy and was pretty chuffed with that..




Another exciting thing that happened on xmas day was that I ticked over to 28 weeks. YAY. Im feeling every bit of it too. Been really sick today. The heartburn, reflux and constipation is just awful. Its so hard to deal with a naughty toddler when you feel like crap. But then again she can be so sweet as well. Today she had me in tears and then she came over to my and said " sorry mummy, I love you" "I wipe away your tears like daddy wipe away mine". How can she go from being so naughty to so loving. Anyway heres a photo of my big belly at 28 weeks...


Hols and I are heading away with mum and dad for a week at maitland. Im so sad that Jay cant come. I have never been away from him for that long but we are going down as my brothers baby is due the 1st of January and hoping to give them a hand in anyway we can. I am going to miss Jay like crazy. We have NEVER been a part that long. On the plus side though Im looking forward to having some help with Hollie through the day.

Ill come back and post some xmas pics tommorrow before I head off to Tamworth then we live first thing Friday morning..

Thought I better come and update since my ob appointment on Wed. Everything is looking ok. Ive lost 2 kilos since the last visit but he thinks that might have to do with not sleeping which leads to nausea, which leads to not wanting to eat. I dont have much of an appetite anyway. He also told us that he cant do the ceaser before he goes away at 37.5 weeks. He said the peads will kill him. Im absolutely shattered and terrified. The ob that will be doing it is nigerian. Hollebone said that he is a very good ob.

Baby is moving non stop and the movements are painful and make me feel ill. Ob said thats cause its run out of room in my joke of a uterus LOL ( well he didnt say that but thats my translation).I fell HUGE and my back is killing from holding my belly up. I have a fantastic waddle which Jay thinks is quite cute... I dont agree..lol..

I keep forgetting to say a HUGE thankyou to Narelle for my lovely pressi she sent me a few weeks ago. My box she made me is living on my scrap table. I love it. And Mel also sent me and Hollie a lovely pressi. Hol was so excited... 2 beautiful ladies that have been so good to me. Makes me feel like such an awful freind when I cant even make an effort to do something in return.

ALso havent mentioned how proud I am of Rach for becoming a MASTER... OMG that girl is unreal and totally talented... Shes inspiration to soo many people. A few of the other gorgeous eb scrappers got honorable mentions. Congrats to clair, dee and Amanda.... Well done girls

Heres some pics from when we put the tree up I forgot to show them off before.... DOH>>>

Just quick post to show what i made for Hols daycare girl thats leaving. Shes pretty upset about it cause it was not her choice. ANother girl got the full time position and another one is coming back from maternity leave. Her and hols have been close from the start... I will fill it with chockies in the morning......Not really that exciting.. LOL...But she'll like it.. Around the edge of her name i have drawn stitching out, looks heaps better IRL.
and her card i made...and a quick little calendar to go in her god mothers xmas pressie. Its just one of the smaller ones. Not all that exciting either but she will love it...

Well the scan was today...... and the news is GOOD... The placenta has moved up. Im sooo relieved. Still anterior but thats fine...... Little bugger wouldnt let us see its face, but it is head down bum up. Was kicking my ribs during hte scan.

Im soo exhausted at the moment and HOls has started being really trying again. She never stops talking and asking WHY, WHAT YOU DOING, BUT WHY......All the way to Tamworth today she wasnt quite ONCE... Its soooo tiring....

Heart burn is killing me, another hairy one I guess... LOL.... \

A freind of the families died of cancer the other day. She was only 33 with 2 young girls. Its so sad to think of what that awful disease does. If there was no cancer so many people I know would still be alive. Its just a cruel thing that doesnt seem fair... Dad keeps ringing me since then telling me that Im not allowed to have any more babies cause its too risky and too hard on my body and he doesnt want to lose me. Think Rikkis death has shaken him up since he was great freinds with her dad. I guess its nice to know he cares so much....

Some other news from today is that Father in Law is not not getting his old position back as manager at the dealership. Its a really LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOONNNNNGGGG story so bare with me.....

The Place where Jay works is a car dealership. It used to be his parents dealership ( we actually met working there together). It used to be called Ian Eveleigh Motors. ( his dads name). In 2002 they went bankrupt and were basically shut down within 3 hours by AGC... We were just shocked and freaked out by it all. We had just signed bank contracts for the house loan and now jay had no job. Jays dad started talking to a big dealership in Tamworth that decided to take on the business as a branch of theres and Jays dad would manage it. Jay had to apply for a position and thankfully got it.. When Jays dad was diagnosed with cancer in February this year another sales man from the other dealership was put in the manager position temporarily till Ian was well enough to return to work. He has only just finished chemo and was offered a less stressful job in Tamworth until he was fully better( he is still very frail and tired). Today he was told he will not be getting his old position back in Gunnedah. Its very hard for Jay cause he feels for his dad and feels a bit guilty about staying on working for the people that have demoted his dad. It means his dad has to travel an hour to work everyday ( doesnt sound like much in the city but is out here). This was Ians business that he lost, his been through cancer that nearly killed him, and now he is doing something he doesnt want to be doing. I feel so sad for him and I only hope that he doesnt spiral into a deep depression...

Trust me to touch the blog and stuff it.. have to come back and add all my links again later.. (sigh)..

While im here ill add a couple of pics of hols getting her book.... Remember the flash didnt go off so they are pretty crap.. HOl loves that book so much. Its her FECIAL ( special) book. She is so proud of her paintings, Makes my heart melt..

LOng time no write.. I have been soooo busy proofing
photos.
Took some for Sister in Law last week and she wasnt happy wiht the way she looked so had to do another set on Friday. SO i have had to go through and proof the whole 400 of them... Lighting has been playing up so it wasnt a simple proofing procedure with the second lot.. GRRR..... SO I got to meet my new neice and took some gorgeous photos of her and my nephew. Ill include a few...


































Im 26 weeks tomorrow. Im huge and the baby never sleeps. It kicks non stop. Stitch is sore and the pressure is getting really bad. I nearly passed out in the main street on Tuesday I had to get help to the car and I layed down in there for awhile. Not sure what it was but Ive been dizzy and nauseous on and off all week. Off to have the GD test done on Thursday and then ultrasound Firday to see what the go is with the placenta....


CHRISTMAS is in 15 days. Im freaking out. I havent bought ONE present and dont have a cent to start buying any. Jay doesnt get commission till the 23rd then excepts me to do all the shopping that day. Im not even supposed to be walking around and its gonna be that hot...

HOls had her daycare xmas party lastnight. She had to go up and recieve her portfolio and she was so cute. Gave Jackie an extra hug and kiss. jackie is her favourite teacher and is leaving this year. Was so cute I got a photo of that ( not a very good one since my bloody flash decided to play silly buggers)... Jay and I also went to his work do last night which was pretty quite but ok.

I also had about 3 inches cut of Hols hair.. It looks sooo much tidier.....

Better go and do some thing I suppose

Quick post to add a LO.Colours are much warmer irl..
... Ill be back later for updates and other photos...

What a week... Ive been so busy.. Tuesday night I did a portrait of my gfs family. Really enjoyed that as I adore the kids lots. She has twins and a son thats 12 motnhs younger. Ive pretty much been there from the twins coming home from hospital so its so nice to watch them grow..Watching the girls together makes me want another girl so much more now. I know that chelsea and Lily are twins so have an extra special bond, but I think it would be so nice for Hol to have a sister....Ill add some pics..
WEdnesday I did some photo shoots at playgroup of the kids dressed up for santa photos. That was exhausting. Then I had to jump in the car and run over to the OB in tamworth. Our air conditioning in the car is broken so It was a very hot drive with it being 38 degrees. I havent been able to walk very well for over a week so had to go over and see the ob. Seems its just the position of the baby pushing on my already deformed spine.. While i was there we talked about my placenta. It is anterior and stiting across my scar at the moment. HE is sending me for a scan in a few weeks and if it hasnt moved it may be growing into the scar. He said if this is the case I will most likely have a hysterectomy at the time of the birth... Im feeling really sad about it all and at the moment just trying not to look to far ahead. I would really like at least one more baby. Bit sad if I have to have that decision made for me...

Anyway Wednesday arvo I was just soo sore and could hardly walk and it was so hot that i couldnt get the energy to drive home. So we ended up going out and staying at mum and dads house. I had NO clothes or anything but it was much better driving back early the next morning before it got to hot.. My nan was also staying at mum and dads cause she had day surgery in Tamworth to get rid of a cataract. She had to go back to see the specialist the next morning and the next we knew she was flown to sydney for emergency surgery. They said it was most probable she would lose her eye. She had got an infection in it.. SHe went in to theatre late thursday night and 4 hours later they finished with her still having her eye. At the moment things are ok.. ( touch wood)....

Ive nearly made 24 weeks. The next 4 weeks are sooo important gestation wise. I just dont feel like we are gonna make it as far as I did with HOls. The pains and pressure in my stitch have started already and I guess cause Im not resting as much as I did with Hol my body is telling me to slow down. SO stupid me goes and says that I will look after my girlfreinds 6 month old baby for 2 days a week till xmas cause she has to go back to work. Jay is not happy at all and told me im not allowed to do it.... Wish I just knew how to say NO...

I became an aunty today to Paige Melissa. Welcome to the world little cherub..... Not sure when I will see her, as they live a couple of ours away and I dont really get on with SIL. She was the one I was upset about being pg back at the start of my blog that takes ( and took while pg) lots of valium and pain killers.....

OMG How much of a poser is my daughter. Here is the photos from our xmas shoot. Shes so adorable I just wanna kiss her...LOL... TOday she was telling me all about how she wants to do tap dancing when she kids older. She is an absolute cakc with an awesome personality.. Her fave thing at the moment is doing jokes on us.. Today I asked her to bring me the phone and she said NO then she got it and said JUST JOKIN..... Shes a cack..

Help me choose which one for xmas cards...