Oh well ... Arent I a slacko... Didnt get back on Thomas bday..... its nearly been 2 weeks.. Naughty mumma..

Well my little prince turned one. Hard to beleive really. This time last year we were still in hospital. He came home on the 3rd of March. Its gone so fast. Hasnt really given me enough time to take in each special moment and month. It just flies by. Feels like only yesterday I was going through the horrid IVF journey and now I have this perfect little man to show for it. Oh how it is worth every rotten needle and hormone.

His bday was nice with sissy going to Preschool so He and I got to spend some time together and then hid girlfreind Kadence came over to hang out with him. We invited Jays mum over for dinner but she had forgot it was Thomas' bday and thought we had invitred her over cause it was valentines day. I couldnt beleive it. Im not mad at her cause she has alot on her plate and valentines day was properly really hard for her this year with Ian gone..... Anyway here are a few shots from his actual bday...

This is Kadi in a pressie bag for him.. LOL.. He kept pushing her back in and closing it... TOO FUNNY
I made him this dodgy cake.. The othe rkids wouldnt eat it cause I made it dairy free. LOL.. I wanted him to get stuck into it and get really messy but he was soo funny and pedantic about it..
Hope you had a wonderful bday precious little man.. Cant wait to celebrate many more with you.........

BBT with photos from his party...

Just ducking in to say we are home from our holiday. We went and stayed with Net who I met on the internet 4 years ago when we were both pg. We have pretty much talked every day since but had never meant. Was so great seeing her and Pete and the kids. It was just like I had known her forever. We drove up to Qld and had a few days with her and then went up to Aunty Caz's house in Caloundra for a couple of days.

My cousin was there who lives in Hong kong as well. I have never seen his kids so it was great to catch up. While i was at Coloundra I caught up with Fo from the scrappers group. She was just as I imagined her and found Hollie and Jay before she found me. LOL. Her hubby seemed really nice and Sam is a doll. Was only short and sweet cause her and Clydey were going on a date to the movies. LOL. Half there luck.

Kim and I met up and went to Lollypops with the kids. Charlize has grown so much and is still as gorgeous as ever. Has the sweetest little voice. Kim took me to her LSS and I had a little spend up ( little compared to kims spend ups). I then stopped in to her house a couple of days later cause she generously gave me a heap of mags. They were great for wasting some time in the car and I came home all inspired.

Took the kids to dreamworld and they had a ball. Thomas loved the big red car at wiggles world. He clapped and cheered the whole way around. Was soo funny. When you go in to dorothys garden it takes a photo of you,.. It doesnt warn you or anything though so when we saw this photo of me being a dick and the kids wiggling too, Jay thought it was pretty funny. LOL. We just had to buy it. LOL.. Check Thomas out... LOL...After we left QLD we headed down towards Sydney. Jay dropped us at Rutherford at the other kims house where the kids and I stayed for a few days while he went to the iron maiden concert. Had a great time getting to know Courtney ( my god daughter) better and hanging out with the twins and Kim. Hol ended up spending 6 hours at Maitland hospital with an asthma attack again.. GRRRRR...

Better get to bed cause its my babys first bday tommorrow... Where has the time gone... :( THis time last year I was having contractions and Jay was an hour away sound asleep. LOL.. The nurses were telling me to hang off calling him. I was panicking cause I knew he had to get HOllie up and pack and get over there....

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QUick post to show off my gals new haircut and to show a funny pic... Here is acpic of the little stunner I took the other day...

This next shot was before the hair cut ( well obviously). Just too funny not to write this down. In this pic she has a little book with hairstyles in it. SHe came out and told me that she had done the hairstyle she has the book open on. LMAO how bloody hilrious.... Not a fantastic pic, but Hey i was pissing myself too much to concentrate on skill.. LOL..


and here is the invite I just wracked up for a little quite do im gonna have for the boy.. OMG like 12 sleeps till he is 1.. THis time last year I was sitting in John Hunter. I cant beleive How fast it has gone......

And some other exciting news is............... Im going to meet Net and Jess..... YAY.... and Im gonna see Kim who I have met before... I cant wait to see all of them.. Just too exciting..

better go hit the fart sack...

Was reading ANg's blog lastnight and she had the most gorgeous photo of her twins Tandem Breastfeeding... Made my heart melt and made me wanted to start feeding thomas again. LOL.. So when he woke at 6am i put him on the boob.. Its such a beautiful thing. He has only been having one feed for a month or so and the last few days I havent been giving him any, but I still had plenty of milk... So I thought I might add my photos that Jay took for me a few weeks ago..

SO is anyone (besides flick, since she commented yesterday) still reading my dribble? LOL.. Please leave a comment..

I heard a rumour that someone said Im pretty negative in what I write in here, but Hey its my diary and I read back a bit and didnt think it was all that negative, sure I have my times ( ok maybe I have lots) but thats what a blog is about isnt it? To write all your thoughts and feelings and emotions and trials and tribulations (hmm how did i go with the spelling on that one> LOL)...

So here is the pics from the party before I toddle off to bed..



Do you think she got a suprise. LOL,... God love her, so she was soo pissed off that she didnt wear something nicer.. LOL.... She thought it was a party for me..
Here is miss priss Dressed ready to go. It was cold, hence the jumper.


My little man.. God he was being a pain in the butt. He did NOT want to stay in the stroller.

My brother and Nephew Noah..

And me cutting my cake..I was a wee bit embarassed.lol.

mum and dad

Well the New year is here, and so far we have celebrated Thomas' 11 month bday and My big 30 bday.... GOd that sounds sooo old.. Im freaking out about the 30s.....

We spent New years at the dam and Jamie made us all stay up all night. He was off his rocker and we stayed up playing games. When it got to around 6am I went looking for him and he was sitting down at the fire sobbing his heart out about his dad. Its the first time he has actually let go since the funeral. Then Thomas started screaming in the caravan so I had to go and leave him but Hollie had woken so she went out to him and they hung out for awhile. He told her all about her dad and things they used to do, so that was a nice time for them. He then slept all day while I had to deal with the kids while totally sleep deprived.. GRRRR men..
Here is the 4 grand kids on new years eve. Cant help but think of Jays dad when I look at this picture. He loved his grandkids...... blake, Thomas, Paige and Hollie.

We went to mum and dads for the week last week cause Jay had to work at the country music so we were over there for my bday... The best pressie was a sleep in. It was devine..... I spent the day shopping for my own presents.. LOL.. Even mum had me shopping for Pjs from her.. At night we went out to tea at the mexican place. Jays mum, sister and BIL came as well as my parents and the Milne Family....

Had to take Thomas to the Ear nose and throat dude on friday cause he has had Earinfections since October and been on Antibiotics that whole time. He needs grommits but he cant have it done till after 18 months.. grrr.. So we just have to treat them with Antibiotics still and hope it clears before then I guess..

Last weigh in ( just before 11 months) he was 9 kilos exactly and 71cm... He doesnt really talk but babbles a little. I guess the ears play a part of that. The last 2 days we have been getting a lot more noises. He is a bit of a rogue and keeps me on my toes. He never stops and is the adventurer that Hollie never was...

Hols never stops talking and some days it just drives me insane. I swear my ears are aching at the end of the day and I just kill for 5 seconds peace and quite....

We had a suprise 80th for Nan on the weekend.. It was great, she sure got a suprise. She thought she was going out for my bday. I love the expression of a really suprised person. Then they all suprised me during the party with a cake of my own.. Have to admit I was a bit embarrassed. LOL..Be back tommorrow with photos of party.

XMas day was a hard day to get through with the absence of Ian. It just felt really wierd and wrong to be doing it without him. Everyone seemed to get through the day ok though with Ro only shedding a few tears as she sat back and watched the kids unwrap there presents. Still seems really surreal to not have him there. Jay took on the role of present giver outerer...

THe kids woke REALLY early and we ran out and opened some pressies. Hol just wanted to check out the beer and see if santa drank it all... Too funny. First xmas morning we have had wiht HOllie without my parents here . Was kinda wierd.. Kids loved all there pressies and Thomas thought it was great...This is the resident Paper eater. LOL.. Check out the gob full in his mouth. He loves the stuff..THomas having an improtue swim ( hence the nakedness). LOL

Xmas eve we went out to the milns house to meet Roxys parents and brothers..Isnt it bizarre how people from the same country can speak so differently. They are from SA and there accent is soo different and the things they call stuff is too...

Devon is Fritz
Pram is pusher
Plant (we say like ant) they say it like aunt
same with cant and grant... cant think of anything else..
Oh and they have yummy biscuits called yo yos..

We had a lovely time and headed back to town just on dark to go look at the lights...

Hollie kept saying I cant beleive it, i just cant beleive it when she saw the lights..Such a funny girl..

Heres some pics.... Thomas and his chick,.. LOL...

And some of the gorgeous Tneesha. She goes to school this year... How sad for her mummy...

She looks a bit too sexy in this last one.. I didnt tell her to pose, she did this herself. THere was actually an even sexier one.. Way tooooo scary
And some of the xmas lights.......

Xmas pics of the kids..... THomas was soo sick in his.. That was the second lot i tried to take of himThis was our xmas cards from the family

OMG Ive been MIA for like forever..... Things been sooo busy and hectic with weddings and and cmas and stuff.....

Poor little man had an asthma attack and was in hospital on oxygen for 4 days... Here is s pic of him in hospital...Poor little mite was on ventolin 3 hourly as well as the oxygen and on prendisone.. Poor little boy.. Jay pissed me off and was being such an arse and wouldnt coem and do a few hours for me but went to cricket instead. I was sooo pissed off..... Really felt let down by some freinds as well...They knew where we were and only one came near us... Im the first one to be there for everyone else ( sorry for the vent)....

Wile Thomas was in hospital Hollie had to go to emergency with asthma as well.. Its this god damn stupid weather.. So bad for asthmatics..

When we got home from hospital we all ended up with gastro. I think Thomas got it the worst. He got 2 lots of it. Has only just started eating again today after 5 days without anything but a bit of boobie.. Poor little man looks sooo drawn and sick... Here is a piccie I took of him yesterday.

He also turned 10 months old.. How the time has flown.. I miss my little baby... I cant beleive how fast it has gone.. he weighs ( well he did before he got sick) 8.4 kilos. Id say he is down to 8 kilos now.. and is 70cm long... Still not saying anything but dad and is cruising the furniture still and occasionally standing up free hand in the middle of the room....

Here is his 10 month old pics... I cant pic one so sorry you have to have a few.... LOL..


Ive also been struggling to deal with the recent unplanned pregnancies of two freinds. Makes me feel like such a bitch that I just cant be happy for them but the jelousy just takes over my mind. It will be baby #4 for both of them. I want another baby soo bad but can i put my family back through all that again....

Promise to be back again soon with xmas piccies.....