XMas day was a hard day to get through with the absence of Ian. It just felt really wierd and wrong to be doing it without him. Everyone seemed to get through the day ok though with Ro only shedding a few tears as she sat back and watched the kids unwrap there presents. Still seems really surreal to not have him there. Jay took on the role of present giver outerer...

THe kids woke REALLY early and we ran out and opened some pressies. Hol just wanted to check out the beer and see if santa drank it all... Too funny. First xmas morning we have had wiht HOllie without my parents here . Was kinda wierd.. Kids loved all there pressies and Thomas thought it was great...This is the resident Paper eater. LOL.. Check out the gob full in his mouth. He loves the stuff..THomas having an improtue swim ( hence the nakedness). LOL

Xmas eve we went out to the milns house to meet Roxys parents and brothers..Isnt it bizarre how people from the same country can speak so differently. They are from SA and there accent is soo different and the things they call stuff is too...

Devon is Fritz
Pram is pusher
Plant (we say like ant) they say it like aunt
same with cant and grant... cant think of anything else..
Oh and they have yummy biscuits called yo yos..

We had a lovely time and headed back to town just on dark to go look at the lights...

Hollie kept saying I cant beleive it, i just cant beleive it when she saw the lights..Such a funny girl..

Heres some pics.... Thomas and his chick,.. LOL...

And some of the gorgeous Tneesha. She goes to school this year... How sad for her mummy...

She looks a bit too sexy in this last one.. I didnt tell her to pose, she did this herself. THere was actually an even sexier one.. Way tooooo scary
And some of the xmas lights.......

Xmas pics of the kids..... THomas was soo sick in his.. That was the second lot i tried to take of himThis was our xmas cards from the family

OMG Ive been MIA for like forever..... Things been sooo busy and hectic with weddings and and cmas and stuff.....

Poor little man had an asthma attack and was in hospital on oxygen for 4 days... Here is s pic of him in hospital...Poor little mite was on ventolin 3 hourly as well as the oxygen and on prendisone.. Poor little boy.. Jay pissed me off and was being such an arse and wouldnt coem and do a few hours for me but went to cricket instead. I was sooo pissed off..... Really felt let down by some freinds as well...They knew where we were and only one came near us... Im the first one to be there for everyone else ( sorry for the vent)....

Wile Thomas was in hospital Hollie had to go to emergency with asthma as well.. Its this god damn stupid weather.. So bad for asthmatics..

When we got home from hospital we all ended up with gastro. I think Thomas got it the worst. He got 2 lots of it. Has only just started eating again today after 5 days without anything but a bit of boobie.. Poor little man looks sooo drawn and sick... Here is a piccie I took of him yesterday.

He also turned 10 months old.. How the time has flown.. I miss my little baby... I cant beleive how fast it has gone.. he weighs ( well he did before he got sick) 8.4 kilos. Id say he is down to 8 kilos now.. and is 70cm long... Still not saying anything but dad and is cruising the furniture still and occasionally standing up free hand in the middle of the room....

Here is his 10 month old pics... I cant pic one so sorry you have to have a few.... LOL..


Ive also been struggling to deal with the recent unplanned pregnancies of two freinds. Makes me feel like such a bitch that I just cant be happy for them but the jelousy just takes over my mind. It will be baby #4 for both of them. I want another baby soo bad but can i put my family back through all that again....

Promise to be back again soon with xmas piccies.....