Im struggling to keep up at the moment. Life is just bogging me down.. Had a melt down last night and cried to jamie and today he let me lie in bed and read a book. I am sick anyway.....

Just wanted to wish Angela all the best for the upcoming few weeks. Very exciting waiting on the birth of her twins. What an awesome incubator she is thus far......

I took Hollie to the pead last week for her reflux review and a few other things... After the increase in dose of her meds there wasnt any change so he said to just cut them all out and see what it does.. She is refluxing a lot more and her behaviour is starting to get worse again...

While we were there I mentioned about Hollies left arm when she swims.. She wont use it at all. If I hold the right arm she still wont use the left. I asked the chiro about it awhile ago and he said to get it checked out... So the pead looked her over and did some strength tests and some running up and down the corrider. She has always ran really funny but I just thought she was unco.. He did some reflex tests and the left leg didnt respond all that well... He is sending us off for a CT scan to check the right side of the brain ( which controls the left side). He isnt sure what the problem is... he did mention a " mini stroke" so I guess we just wait and see...

I just wish we could have a magic wand to get her sleeping. The pead suggested hard sleeping pills.. WT???? I didnt even have to think twice. No way.....

She woke up this arvo with trouble breathing so she has been on the nebuliser this arvo and has prendisone on bored.. I sooo didnt want her to be asthmatic. Its an awful bloody thing. I hate it.. I rang the hospital but they said I was pretty confident looking after her so just to keep her at home unless the nebules arent cutting it.

Bye for now

Tagged from Narelle... my first one...

Here's the deal:

1-post these rules
2-each person tagged must post 8 random(... hopefully interesting) facts about themselves
3-taggees should write a blogpost of these facts
4- at the end of the post 8 more bloggers are tagged and named and released back into the wild
5-go to their blog and leave a comment telling them they're tagged


1. I have played piano since I was 5 years old. I did some teaching gigs for a little while....

2. I travelled in the state youth band playing trumpet...

3. I got expelled for school from wagging and being in a drug bust and escorted by the police back the principle ( who was a nun)...

4. I left home at 16.. Did my HSC while living with 4 alcholic blokes that had partys all night. Was so hard to get motivated to study..

5. I have only one kidney, half a uterus, extra vertebrae. Didnt find any of this out till I was 20. Was quite a suprise..

6. I spent 5 years with an alcholic druggo. Followed him to partys every night of the week then got up and went to work. He killed my dog, doused me in petrol, broke a mirror over my head and just treated me like crappola...

7. I used to be really fit and went to the gym twice a day.

8. I had a nervous breakdown nearly 8 years ago now. I was agoraphobic and I totally lost control of my life.....

ohh im excited I got my first tag..Im no longer a tagging virgin..... LOL... But its too late now and Ive stayed up too long knitting ( just call me gran) so ill come do it tommorrow....

Heres a little vid, well actually its a black screen since it was dark, but you can hear Hollies bloody carrying on..... This is the shit she carries on with everynight at bed time. This was after an hour and she was starting to wind down. Its just bloody ridiculous. Then we have to deal with her waking all the time after about 11pm. Its driving me mental. Im so bloody tired so I just let her in bed now and Jay moves to the lounge, but she moves and talks, and scratches and tosses and kicks all night. IVE HAD ENOUGH....... heres the video... http://smg.photobucket.com/albums/v219/kaysie/Hollie/?action=view&current=c439ab37.flv

Been so slack and busy but had to come and say that Thomas rolled today.. YAY he is such a clever boy. He is soo sick too so it was a great effort. He had a huge sleep afterwards so must have taken it out of him...

On the 1st of the month it was a year since I had him transferred. How amazing is it that that little man came from a dish.. Just incredible... He is doing ok, Reflux and colic totally suck but I seemed to have gotten use to the screaming, crying and winging that it doesnt effect me that much this time.

Thomas and I have the flu and I feel like total crappola....

Im so tired I cant even think what else to write so I might just post photos.. LOL....

Now I dont usually think my kids look that much alike but check out this photo.....













How happy does he look in this pic below. Always has a beautiful smile for his mummy...