Oh well here I am back in the land of the blog.... Can you beleive I have been AWOL this long.... NO...
Things are still a little complicated in my little ole life at the moment but hey im still here....
Jamie and I are still seperated.. Coming up to 6 months now. Still doing counselling and have just started some sessions together. We really havent been talking much of a late and its really quite wierd. It went from him still coming up every day to now nothing. He hasnt even really rang in the last 2 weeks to talk to the kids. He has been in Tamworth for baseball and we just see him when he picks the kids up... Very strange and not sure how I feel about it all.
A good thing that has happened is ive lost 13 kilos.... Been doing a shake diet for about 3 months and though the weight is slow to come off im happy with how it is going.. Only 17kilos to go to goal weight... Ive found that my stomach has shrunk so much that even if I do eat meals I can only eat half as much... Here is a before and after I made up to put on facebook.... ive actually lost another kilo since that after photo..
Last week was my bday and it was the most miserable day ever.. I was just soo low and emotional.. I cried from the time i woke up. Jay came and took the kids, I couldnt even function to dress the kids..... I got no presents, no cake, my car broke down and a heap of other shit happened that i cant talk about.... It totally sucked... LOL..
I also got a new car last week.. Was so sick of all the shit going wrong with my bomb and dad was too so dad paid to get me a car and im just paying him off what i would pay the bank... Pretty good car for what we paid.. Will have to get a photo of me with it.. Its a Hyundai sonata that has been so well looked after. Only has 90,000 klm on it and he just put 2 new tyres on it.. Electric windows ( ive never had those) LOL... SO far the kids have helped in keeping it tidy inside we will see how long that lasts... LOL..
I was working on a calendar at the end of last year with the local family support group.. God that worked out to be a HUGE job with lots of hours and long nights. I was sooo stressed out by the end of it I was glad to see it printed. Its been a huge success and lots of wonderful feedback about my photos. There was a launch at the local civic theatre with all the images on the big screen. I was interviewed for the local news which was a bit embarrassing. Mum and dad came to teh launch and kept telling me how proud they were of me so that was really nice.. I will upload some photos of the calendar another day...
Thomas and HOllie are growing like weeds.. Cant beleive miss Hollie is nearly 5.. WOW... Not sure how she feels about Jay and i seperating. She likes to say she hates me when she gets in trouble and start crying for daddy but other then that she doesnt seem to disturbed by it all. I think she prefers us not fighting all the time, and this way she actually gets to spend tim ewith daddy when he has weekends...
Thomas will be 2 in a couple of weeks. wahhhhhhh.. This time 2 years ago I was in hospital. Thats just flown by.. He is such a funny hilrious little person. I just adore him.. He loves to swing upside down from everthing, climbs everything, destroys everything.. LOL...
I dont want to have blog exhuastion from one post.. LOL.. so ill leave it at that and now try to keep up again.. Didnt mean to leave it so long but catching up kinda felt too hard at the time....
