The life of a Riley

Just thought I would post my first pregnancy photo at 9 and a half weeks. Im wearing my new RIPE jeans i bought off ebay. I love them... where that white spot is is the TV behind me so you can see where my back is in comparsion to my front. LOL. Im actually breathing in in that pic to make sure i wasnt pushing out.

Im feeeling slightly better today. Still really down on myself, and feeling like I need a huge boost, but Ill work through it. I have an appointment on Tuesday with my GP again, to get a referral for a new counsellor. Mine died :(.. I need help to stop being so hard on myself.

Mel ( my bossy mother figure) told me I had to do a scrap Lo with 10 things i love about me. I struggled to get to 7. I find it really hard to find things I like about myself. Having an abusive ex doesnt help all that much. Told me I was a worthless peice of shit. I pretty much got told the same thing this week and it just started all those feelings again......

Anyway, today Hols is at daycare today, so its a ME day. There has been two cases of chicken pox at the centre. Hope Hol doesnt bring it home. She cant have the vaccine, cause it has egg in it, and she is allregic to egg. Jamie hasnt ever had them. Laast year my brother got them and got encephilitis, menangitis, so im a bit scared about Jamie getting them at such a late stage in his life.

Lastnight I did my first scrapping in ages. I scrapped Fo's cj page. So thats another down and about another 12 to go.. At least I actually sat there without pukeing.

Bye for now.